Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Caption competition! (#2)
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Monday, May 29, 2006
The News in Brief
I have my first clinical exam in exactly a week. Not that I'm scared or antying.
I'm realising what I've been trying to ignore for a while - I'm not fully better. Pain's gone, tiredness remains. Slowly does it...
I've set up a new blog, courtesy of an idea by Becci. View amazing things here.
Friday, May 26, 2006
Where'd that Friday feeling go?
The Friday feeling has been replaced with the Fresher feeling!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
An admission
I want my exams to be over!
Now that I'm well enough to do so;
I want to sit and read all those books on my shelf,
I want to chill out with people and have fun,
I want to sit and spend hours reading my Bible,
I want to read blogs and be challenged/encouraged,
I want to go for a nice, long walk,
I want to go to the beach,
I want to finish typing up my Grandpa's diary,
I want to write letters,
I want to go to town and just wander,
I want to watch films,
I want to write,
I want to take photos,
I want to DO STUFF that isn't work!
I want, I want I want...Ahh, it's all about me, me, me, after all...
(And it's for moments like these that Colossians 3:23-24. is pinned above my desk.)
I should be working...
And I love this.
So I wrote this:
Can you tell me He's not there?
When you look into the sky
When you feel a gentle breeze,
Do you ever wonder why
This world ever came to be?
When you climb a mountain high
Or watch fish in gentle stream,
When you hear a waterfall
Is there meaning there at all?
When you swim in glistening sea
Or build castles in the sand,
When you lie in meadows green
Do you start to understand?
When you think and talk and move
When you watch a bird in flight,
When you really feel alive
Are you still looking for proof?
When you stop just for a time
Just to wonder at the earth,
When you ponder all around
Can you tell me He's not there?
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Happy cake!
With congratulations to Ed, Jess and everyone else who's finished their exams...
...and a happy birthday to Tim!
(Disclaimer: I do not have the talent to make a cake such as the above - or any cake, for that matter - and so this image is provided courtesy of Google images and is copyright to Jill, 2001! It was a choice between this and the only photo I have on my computer of a cake. It's a wedding cake mam made over Easter. Mam's cake is of course wonderful. But this one's funny.)
Sunday, May 21, 2006
On my knees
In church this morning James quoted from John Owen, who said:
“A minister may fill his pews...and the mouths of the public, but what that minister is on his knees in secret before God Almighty, that he is, and no more”.
That quote REALLY hit me coz it doesn't just apply to ministers, it applies to us all. It applies to me. I am nothing but what I am in Christ. Whatever God sees in my heart, that is what I am. I can try all I like to hide bits of me from others; God sees them. And I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want to have to hide stuff. I want to be genuine. I want God to SO permeate my life with His Spirit - my actions, words, thoughts...everything! I know I'll never be perfect this side of Heaven - but I wanna be so much more serious about sin, so much more desperate to root it out of my life. I want to cling to Jesus my true vine and produce fantastic fruit. I want Him to prune me where I need to be pruned; clean me where I need to be cleaned.
And then the other thing is that I want everything I do to bring glory to God. When I'm with other people I want to be exactly what I am when I'm simply on my knees before God, when I'm standing myself next to the cross of Christ - nothing but what I am in God. NOTHING of me, and ALL of Him. I am nothing more than that. May it always be about God, and never about me.
That goes some way to explaining where I'm coming from in this poem...
On My Knees
On my knees before You
The door is closed to all;
You see me now in secret
And to my heart You call.
You see me now in secret
One true thing I know;
On my knees before You -
I am nothing but Your own.
On my knees before You
My deepest depths unveiled;
You see me now in secret,
Nothing hidden remains.
You see me now in secret
You know how I must change;
On my knees before You
Oh Father, have Your way.
On my knees before You
I pray that I'd be cleaned;
You see me now in secret,
Have me glorify Your Name.
You see me now in secret
And this is all I am;
On my knees before You
My life is in Your hands.
On my knees before You
I pray that I'd bear fruit;
You see me now in secret,
Let others see this too.
John 15:1-8
John 15:1-8
Over past few years lots of “How to...” books have been written. Jesus teaches us here how to grow a fruitful church. He's speaking to his disciples on the night before the crucifixion. He gives them instructions about their relationship with Him, each other, and with outsiders. Verses 1-8 are about their relationship with Him. He teaches them how to grow a fruitful church, but in reality it's God who does everything.
1. Plant the best quality stock.
In this chapter Jesus deals very much with the disciples' relationship with Him. Compares Himself to a vine.
Important Old Testament background – Israel was often likened to a vine/vineyard – e.g. Isaiah 5:1-7 :- picture language is used in this passage to show how God has taken care of Israel. But – they've only produced bad fruit (or, literally, 'stinky' fruit). Fruit men and women produce = deeds/characteristics. In verse 3 God starts to speak. He will punish this people. In verse 7, Isaiah explains that Israel are the bad vine/vineyard – they are unfaithful and false.
Every time Israel is likened to a vine/vineyard in the OT it's a bad image and used to show how they've let God down. Each member of Israel was a sinner (just like you and me..)
Back to John 15...Jesus is the TRUE vine. Good fruit comes from this vine. The fruit desired by God. So the first step in growing a fruitful church is to link to the best quality vine.
2. Pick off the dead wood.
Arminians say that a Christian can lose their salvation. Is that what verses 2 and 6 say?
On the face of it, it seems so. But they don't. That would bring them into conflict with other passages. Remember, for example, John 10:28-30. Jesus was talking about Christians and gives a wonderful promise. That's not to say real believers won't backslide. That's tragic, but real. But it IS to say we won't be lost in the end.
These verses in chapter 15 are speaking about people like Judas. People who've been associated with Jesus and may fool everyone else into thinking they're real believers – but look at their lives. Counterfeit Christians.
We need to be concerned about the purity of the church but only God can pick off dead wood. These verses challenge us to make sure we ARE genuine Christians.
3. Prune fruitful branches.
We undergo a pruning process. The aim is to make us more fruitful. How? When we suffer, and look to the Lord, we grow stronger. That's one way. But it's not the primary meaning of verse 2. The word translated 'prunes' (verse 2) normally means 'cleaned'. In verse 3, the word 'clean' comes from the same root in the original Greek.
So, in the sight of God, the disciples are now clean. They're clean through the words of Christ (verse 3). But in terms of actions, they're not perfect. Sanctification is ongoing and leads to the bearing of more fruit.
So how are the disciples pruned? Through the words of Jesus Christ. They prune us, condemn sin in us, promote growth in us, inspire holiness in us...They produce fruit.
So – we have to take the Bible very seriously indeed! We will not be fruitful without it.
Read it.
Memorise it.
Listen carefully whenever it's preached.
Stick it on post-it notes around your house!
Write it in the steam on your bathroom mirror!
Whatever you do, take it seriously. Take it in.
4. Pass on nourishment (verse 4-5).
Every branch that bears fruit has to be in contact with the vine. It passes on nourishment to the branches. So Christians have to be in contact with Christ. “Remain in me...” - inward, personal communion with Christ.
What's the result? Much spiritual fruit. Every good thing you do/word you speak/thought you think comes from Christ.
Fruitfulness is NOT the result of human achievement but of abiding in Christ.
Apart from Him, we can do NOTHING. And it's when we remain in Christ that our prayers are answered. Am I sticking close to Christ? Apart from Jesus I can do NOTHING.
John Owen once wrote (more or less – language updated!):
5. Parade the gardener's skill.
The above four points have been things that God does, not us. This is for us – give God the glory!
What is the point of a vine? To produce grapes – and not much else!
What is the point of a Christian, of a church? To bring glory to God.
That's what verse 8 teaches us to do. And we can do that by bearing fruit. When people see a truly fruitful Christian, they get a glimpse of the invisible God through them. And that glorifies Him.
Are you a fruitful Christian? Negatively, if you're not, you're robbing Him of glory which should be His. Positively, if you are, you're fulfilling the greatest purpose of your life by bringing Him glory.
What is the chief end of man? To glorify God and enjoy Him forever.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
'Nuff said
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
A lesson
Five minutes later I got an email with the dates for my practical clinical exams. It made it all official and what did I do? Having just posted on the trust we have in Jesus you'd think I'd pray and give it all over to Him, wouldn't you?!
Nope.
I paced my room, I printed the email, I panicked, I paced my room again, paced my corridor, let Kat, Becky and Issy know exactly how scared I was, and then paced into town. (At least I'm better, eh - praise God for the ability to pace!)
What a shocking confirmation of how fickle I am!
And it was not until I was on my way into town I did what I hsould have done in the first place - I prayed! And then God reminded me - NOTHING can separate me from His love (Romans 8:38-39) - not even clinical exams!
What a glorious, wonderful confirmation of God's grace!
And so WHY am I scared? After berating myself a little for letting it get to me so much - especially just five minutes after talking about how much we can trust God in everything - I was again reminded of God's grace and spent the rest of the walk into town just praising His glorious, wonderful Name.
My joy still ebbs and flows;
But peace with Him remains the same—
No change Jehovah knows.
I change, He changes not,
The Christ can never die;
His love, not mine, the resting-place,
His truth, not mine, the tie.'
He changes not
Monday, May 15, 2006
Click click
I finally have a new USB lead for my camera. Some of you may not be so thankful when you see some of the photos from Word Alive over on Welshie's Wanderings...
Saturday, May 13, 2006
It's the wheelbarrow!!!
My uncle Clive and auntie Gill have quite a large garden and when we were little, my older cousins used to push my brother Nathan and I round the garden in this wheelbarrow. And while Nathan was clearing out my auntie Adelle's garage t'other day he found it!
He's kinda outgrown it now, as have I, but we're so gonna have to re-create old times when I'm next home!
2 down, 2 to go...
And after two months of doing nothing then spending a week revising I slept all afternoon!
Praise God for getting me through those exams, especially considering just two weeks ago I thought I wasn't gonna be able to graduate in July.
God is good!
Just two practical ones to go and then I'm done. Wow, doesn't time fly.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
1 down, 3 to go!
And, God was faithful (surprise surprise!). Not entirely sure how it went or whether I answered the questions properly but I answered them so I don't need to think about it anymore!
It completely wiped me out sitting there for so long trying to concentrate. A LONG time since I've done that! My concentration was shot for the rest of the day. To the point where, in fact, I just stood and watched while Issy tried to load a trolley full of shopping into Becky's car in the hailstones, instead of helping! Sorry dude!
But God's got me through that exam, He's made sure I'm awake enough to revise today and as scared as I am about the next three exams, He's gonna take me through those as well. I don't know why and I know I don't deserve it, but that's His grace and that's one of the wonders of being His child. HOW amazing is that?!
"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!"
1 John 3:1
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Exam time!
But God is good.
And why am I here? I'm not just here to pass my exams. I'm here to give God glory. Pass or fail He is worthy to be praised. He DOES NOT CHANGE.
SO good! He has been so, SO good to me. And I am saved! If nothing else, I have that; and that means I need nothing else!
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Hot off the press
I'm ransomed, I'm healed
Monday, May 08, 2006
Right now...
...my room is an absolute state (and I couldn't care less!)
...I'm cold
...I've shut my curtains coz it's not a nice day!
...I feel good! (physically!)
...I'm reminded of how amazing God is
...there's a box of chocolate cake mix staring at me telling me to avoid revision and bake cake
...it's less than 48 hours till my exam
...I'm going back to revision!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
My mind is well and truly blown!
We cannot fully grasp what is being said here. What do these words mean? That the Father and the Son indwell us?
Do they indwell us by the Spirit? Or is there some other way?
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Rejoice, rejoice and again I say rejoice!
Friday, May 05, 2006
Awww...memories!
I was so scared, in fact, that I spent pretty much the whole of the first day of the freshers fayre in the CU tent!
Awww...see if you can find me! There's some others you may recognise as well!
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
The Lord's lessons in literature...
Oh, to be like Mr Omer! Seeing not the problems, the inconveniences, associated with this pain. But rejoicing in it! Rejoicing not in newfound time to read the paper (or smoke a pipe, for that matter), but in newfound time to read God's word. Rejoicing always that I'm saved, and that gives me cause for joy however I'm feeling - physically or otherwise. Seeing this time, feeling this pain, not as a hindrance but a blessing.
When, as we heard at Word Alive from Roger Carswell, Matthew Henry was robbed by a highwayman, he was still thankful. Why?!
1. He'd never been robbed before
2. The highwayman took all he had, but not his life
3. Although everything was taken, it wasn't much in the first place
4. He was robbed, not the one who did the robbing!
There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for!
PRAISE THE LORD!!
I love my degree
Monday, May 01, 2006
Post Script
Hopefully I'll be in the working-quite-well category again soon....
Adventures in A&E...
So Saturday night I slept very little because I was in so much pain. By rights I should phoned an ambulance at 2am but I was hoping it would pass. Shoulda phoned at 3am...but yep, still hoping it would pass!
It lessened on Sunday but by 10pm it was quite clear that over 24 hours of pretty much constant pain warranted a trip to good ol' RBH.
Oh what fun.
And no, they still don't know what it is!
But God does...and in Him I rest. :-)
I will lie down and sleep in peace,