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I was so tired tonight that I was in bed by 9.30 and asleep by 10! Impressive! Until I woke at 12.45! And my brain, as it has a habit of doing late and night when my body's trying to sleep, started whirring. Eventually (oh, when will I ever learn...'eventually' should be 'straight away'!) I started praying. And the words started forming a poem in my head. I had a bit of a conversation/argument with myself about whether I should get up and write them down or wait till the morning coz getting up would certainly not help me get back to sleep... After going over and over the words in my head and slightly re-writing it about 4 or 5 times I eventually (there's that word again) said "OK God, you win" and got up. Here's the result...

Restless Night

Tossing and turning,

Thoughts now returning;

Fear and shame

Guilt and lies

Grab me, hold me,

Taunt me

Haunt me;

Diverting my eyes

From the Truth

In Your Name.

I'm captive, I'm struggling,

Held now and sighing;

Lost and alone

Tears and pain

Twisting, turning,

Longing

Yearning;

You unlock my chains

And Your grace

Says 'Now come'.

I'm ransomed, I'm healed

This prisoner is free;

Search my heart

Try my thoughts

Bid me now rise,

Blind eyes

To lies;

With Your blood I'm bought

And Your cross

Leads me Home.